have u ever felt that u were going to make it but BOOM! reality right smack in ur freaking face telling u its not wad u think it is..
for record's sake it has been 45 days since round ubin. which means since then i had been training consistently in a k1.. so wads wrong? u ask me. its freaking wrong! ok i restrained from using the (friendship unity caring kindness) word.. u guys tell me "oh its ok" "u just need more time" "train more then can already" "we all start out like that".. but did it ever occur to u that i did compete in a k1 when i was j1 and was last in finals.. that means prior to this i had like 4 months plus of k1 training at freaking kallang! compare the waves at kallang to the waves at macritchie.. wad waves?!?!?
maybe i do have too high expectations of myself.. but i hate not being able to do something which everybody else.. fiona was in a raptor too but shes like how stable.. still can rescue me somemore.. yihui who has joined only after round ubin is damn zai too! i told myself every training i must cap less but it seems like im capping more la.. but as the famous saying goes- fast can already. i disagree! if say u are as fast as the fastest person u can think of, but during the race u capsize. u tell me is it fast can already?
then i was so tired i took a nap at 4plus (delibrately skipping my reason and persuasion tutorial which was at 4) and wanted to wake up at 5pm. so i set my alarm.. but tell me how dumb i can get i set it as 0500 and not 1700!! slap my freaking face i tell u. in the end i woke up at 6plus which was too late to go for my another tutorial which is 6-7pm.. dumbass ok.
alright at least i can find something to be happy about.. kobe bryant scored 81 points in the game against toronto raptors!!! wow hes the man.. too bad hes working with a bunch of under performing teammates.. i miss the time when it was bryant shaq fisher payton and all.. and if any of u nba fans out there lets think of a name for the singapore basketball team! like singapore suckers vs LA lakers.. haha!
{the riddle of red}
