yawnz
another day of timed trials.. subconsciously i really didnt want to turn up haha which explains why i went back to sleep after enping called me at like 720am when we were supposed to be at nus shed at 7am.. hurhur.. woke up and took cab in the end.. hurhur the cab driver drove damn fast i dunno wad he was rushing for! i didnt tell him i was in a hurry or wad lor.. wahhh maybe hes a psychic! (ok im spastic)
anw thats not the point.. wait so wads the point? errrrr.. oh.. yah i really didnt want to turn up but i still went and did k1 and k2 with xiaohui.. we made merit status for 500m today and 1000m yesterday hahah with us wobbling throughout and me not coordinating at all.. boooo i cant follow high frequency so lousy.. my recovery is damnnn slow.. so yah i made merit with my k1 too.. and NOOOOOOooooooooo its not a good thing.. it would be good if i knew wad i wanted.. but i dont
people who know me well enough will understand how freaking indecisive i am.. and there are just toooo many factors to consider regarding this decision.. although nothing is settled yet but i really wanna thank those who have been listening and giving me advice.. helping me see things from different point of views and stuff.. hope i can come to a decision soon.. or i should just leave it to the "unconscious" as quoted "It should benefit the individual to think consciously about simple matters and to delegate thinking about more complex matters to the unconscious," from a research journal.. this means.........................................
I SHOULD STOP THINKING!!!
this is just escapism.
today we were talking and i started counting how long i have been paddling.. and i realised its actually very short as compared to many others.. ok u see.. i joined ac canoeing after first 3 months so thats like march 03 and i stopped after NCC which was aug 04 i think.. then i started again in nus aug 05 and its like june 06 now.. so, (calculating) i have been in this sport for 2 years and 4 months! i cant imagine how some people can paddle for wad many many years.. oh but its not like u give me a few more years i will be very fast hahah.. wadever laaaaaa
im tired..
{the riddle of red}
