time is passing so fast that i have lost track of time.
who came up with the concept of time? why is the morning the morning and the night the night? why do i feel sleepy in the morning and is energetic and can only focus at night? why do we need to sleep? why is training in the morning? why do we train? why do we study? why do we have exams? why cant we just learn and understand theories and facts without being tested for our knowledge? why cant things go my way? why is life so unfair? why does life sucks? why why why???
i know im just whining and complaining, just let me. i dont wanna explode inside and die suddenly.
so my exam dates are 27 28 30 6. and guess wad? i've only READ the notes for the first paper. the rest of the modules? erm. nowhere near anything. WTF. sigh i dont understand how the rest can bring themselves to study. i mean, i can see my exams coming, finally. but, i just dont wanna study! i dunno if im being wilful or stupid or lazy. im just wasting my time doing nonsense, digging my own grave for this exam.
it pains me to study. and studying just sucks the energy out of my life. and im not even mugging real hard. im only flipping through notes. how the hell did i manage to come so far? from nursery, kindergarten, pre-primary, primary, secondary, jc, and now this fucked up place. honestly, i lurrrrvvveee learning. im serious! i like to understand new concepts and discover facts and learn things that i never knew. IF ONLY we dont have to memorize stuff and be tested on it. life would rawwwwkkkk a lil bit more.
it sucks that wad happens in nus will sort of determine your future. i mean, of course there are many paths that you can choose to take. but ultimately, we all are stuck in this bloody rat race and damned country where your cert is probably more worthy than your capabilities. maybe my view is myopic. maybe i dont have a view. maybe i dont have a stand. maybe i dont know what i want. maybe im just wasting my life away. maybe i should be studying instead of blogging and chatting and sleeping and watching tv and playing games and training and......................... MAYBE I LURVE EXAMS.
sigh.
i feel like a kid whining.
LIFE SUCKS. so does triangle.
{the riddle of red}
