Tuesday, October 25, 2005

went for sports award ceremony last fri.. was very inspiring.. :)

this fren asked me why i scheduled my driving lessons early in the morning at 1030am on sundays.. i told her its cos when i booked the slots i wanted to keep the rest of my day for him.. but now its actually robbing my sleeping time.. its interesting to realize how certain stuff that used to matter alot no longer mean a thing now.. and looking back isnt it quite stupid to have gotten worked up or upset over those stuff? hmmm..

i pray that everything will be fine for my relative.. i cant bear seeing any loved ones leaving me again..

and actually seeing ppl happy makes u happy too! i was really happy for my fren when some nice stuff happened to her.. seriously happy.. i should start hanging out more with happy ppl..

im a phasal person.. like during one period of time i can be really close to this person but suddenly *boom* we arent close and dun keep in contact anymore.. i tend to neglect my frens too.. hate myself for that.. when i realised i have been neglecting somebody then i try to make up for it makes me even more phasal and periodic..

my biological clock is screwed up.. some days i can survive with no sleep and still do alot of activities but some days i just sleep in like a pig erm more like in a coma haha..

and congratulate me when i get my CAP of 2.0 or worse.. and see me get kicked out of nus next sem.. maybe this is the path i should take.. i never liked studying anyway but i cant disappoint my parents.. so life is like a straw.. it sucks.. no wonder ppl say consistency is very important.. im only consistent in skipping classes not doing work and going for training.. wonderful isnt it?